dog-less.

sighs. its just a dog. yet i made me cry and plead and willing to gif up anything fer it. To haf the dog, my mother said. no usage of computer after 9pm. atrocious. but i said ok. score Ad for all modules. not easy. but i can try. so i said ok. all expenses i pay. no money. i can work to support the dog. so i said ok. includes vet visits and puppy care. okie. i said i'll work to support the dog. i can like. give up everything to get the dog. i jus wan something that i can take care of. for the dog, i cried, snap at my frens, spoiled my mood (and my frens). also duno y the dog is so important to me.
so much pressure and advices. 'dun get the dog first. next time u grow older also can haf..'. 'the dog needs attention, time, money..' sighs.
mayb because all along in my life, i took things fer granted. i'm too much of a goodie 2 shoe. all that i haf i take it as i suppose to haf. and all that i wan but not get, i'll canot take it. too big a set back for my request to be rejected. mayb this is the side effect of being too much of a goodie 2 shoe. do wad i'm suppose. listen. do and do it well. tt's y i'm like so pissed off. ' how long are u goin to lead tt life?' i seriously dunoe. i'm too afraid to defy. mayb.. mayb..
in the midst of my pissed off attitude, i told her : i dun wan that dog already. u noe y. she wanted me to write out in black and white all the things tt my bro and i promise her in order fer that dog. thanks but no thanks. i rather not haf tt dog already. u think u can make me abide to all ur nonsensical requests in exchange fer wad i wan although i realli wan it?come on. its not tt easy. no way. tata.