obsession

got influenced by sue to paint and decor my nails. =)









pretty hor? haha. photos only. see nearly. puis. hahah!
happy becos i'm hiao. =)

=)

mornin went to yishun with wenyou, davin, and zhihao for poly forum discussion and doin the market research thing. erm. kinda find them familiar, esp the guys, but dun rmb when i've seen them. =\
went to wenyou's aunt shop. intervi.. WAIT!! PEARLY JUST CALLED ME FROM AUST!

WHEES! pearly says she's sian there. no cute guys. but pretty much asians around her. oh. i got her address too. ask me for it okay? sue, haf to take photo with u, and send to her. she request wan. =) oh and. she said. the surf stuffs aint any cheaper there. =(

ok. ya. interviewed wenyou's aunt.did wad we had to. and we left.

went to meet leon. pei him go town to change a chain. he is so irritatin lorh. henry, u lose he. he fan dao me first.

and i went to lot 1. met gia, candy and wanxian. had pretty good laughs. been such a long while since i last saw them can! candy's hair like square square wan. haha. like patrick. patrick as in ying jie. =x last time his hair long also liddat wan. borrowed books. and they are coming over to my hse to bake cupcakes! =) whees!

grocery shopping

yeaps. u read right. GROCERY shopping. haha. went to imm with suelin for grocery shopping. we went imm okay! giant! suelin says giant is a mini mart. = \ so contrast can?! okay. we went, saw wad we felt like eating, and just put them in the trolley. haha. grocery shopping spree!
i bought : 2 mocha mint, 2 rows of vitagen, lotte choco biscuits,flintstone breakfast cereal, and sea coconut! wad else? hmm..
okay. we saw Alice Apple, Mushy Mushroom, and Veggy Vegetables. wahaha. wondering wad they are?






tidbits lar! so cute rite? but i wonder how does mushy mushroom taste like. *scrunches nose.

suelin made me take a pic with her silly frilly doll. see how disgusted i look lar.



shit. i'll double chin soon



heh. so pretty rite? =x a pic of how i look when i just woke up not long ago.

went to the clinic with kaiqi and my ah por to collect medicine. den sent ah por back, and kai qi and i went sunshine cove!

so happy to be back. =) the kids were so cute lar! had so much fun that i forgot to take photos. lennon baby is walking already, hobbes baby was so angry at us. he keep crying and ignoring us. playin with everyone except us. maybe cos its been a long time since we last saw him, and he missed us? he pretended not to look at us, but started to cry and held his hands out when we faked that we were goin home. =( xin tong xin tong. lennon baby went to get his shoes when we were goin off, and cried when we din bring him off. he stood at the gate and cried so loudly. =( i miss them!

!

eh. was talkin about sneakers with zenic on msn.

kinda heart itching to buy a dunk soon. =)

i'm considering this. but xiaojun says onli LA got. haha. nvm! i got an pretty air stewardess cousin! =D

cartoon LA air force

or



or



wad da u think?

mud

the title has nth to do with the entry.

here were wad i did ytd while i was angry and moodless.

drew this 2 pieces of work on my sketch book

curly whirly and straight lines


and on my mirror,


i took the glass out of the shelf, and drew on it. i fixed it back though.


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went bugis with xiaojun. he is such an arse. keep ask me to zou kai la. =( i box u i tell u. and i'm not afraid of ur threats. lau xi threats. AH HAH!
he bot his pants, and his love-at-first-sight abercrombie and fitch sweater. pretty pretty. =)

at bugis, i saw shui yu, SUELIN!, waiseen, kelvin, and my cousin. so so so qiao can? .after tt hs came and we went Burger King to eat and teach him maths. =D i'm so proud of myself. wahaha. its been long since i last touched maths lar okay.

den went home. my brother got his license and he is damn proud about it. he insisted on driving me back from yew tee. dark, raining, and first time driving family's car. bad move. his first turn, the back wheel went up the kerb. from then, i held on so tightly to the hand grip above the door. i dun wan to risk my life. ok. it went well. until the parking starts. the tail of the car was so near the other car's tail. so slant can! wah biang. i told him to stop the car and i got my younger bro and me out of it, while my dad tried to steer the car back. lau xi.

lastly:
xiao jun's trying-to-act-cool-but-failed-miserably pic. he looked sad instead.


put it small small in case he ask me to zou kai again!

3 oct 2005

the date rang a bell. today is chai yan's birthday!
happy birthday yan.

woke up by my brother's call. he asked me to take his wallet and keys to sch. so i woke up. and bathed and dressed prettily with spects on. went to his sch. passed him those stuffs, and went lot 1 alone.

i'm so proud of myself. at 10.45am i ate a plate of chicken rice in lot 1. alone! so proud. this is the 2nd time i've eaten alone. it feels good.

saw edward mingjie teckmeng and xiao di at long john. =) chatted with them for a while. they are still as rubbish as the past. so happy to meet them.

went to sch alone. erm. considered lucky today. all the buses come quickly. in sch. i walked around. rent my blazer, handed in my passport. and i went home.

goin to meet xiaojun later. dunoe wher he wanna go to buy his shorts or pants or sth. lazy lazy lazy.

indulge

indulge in ice cream
indulge in chocolates
indulge in chips
indulge in fizzy drinks
indulge in candy floss
indulge in biscuits
indulge in sweets

indulge in every thing except solid proper food.
havent been eating since ytd's lunch. =)

i'm fat, and for the very first time, i dun care.
i'm slightly fine. will be better very soon. =)

oh so fucking lucky

dear all.
u are oh-so-lucky to be able to see this entry.
why?
cos i was nearly KILLED BY MY OWN FATHER.
wonderful ?

it all begins:
was on the car. me him and my younger brother.
was arguing about the usage of lap top.
their own main computer spoil. den all wanna come use my lap top.

he : lap top is to use for sch. not chit chat everyday.
me : ok. use for sch rite. all dun use my lap top lorh. play wad maple. watch wad dvd. all dun use lar.
he ,very loudly: u dun guai lan with me.
me : den u da xiao sheng for wad. i also nv guai lan. i stating my point.
he : ta ma de. u every nite use. we wher got disturb u.
me : because u all got computer wad! den computer spoil den come use mine.
he : if computer nv spoil we also dun wan to use urs.
me : oh. u use computer i also nv ka jiao u all. when computer spoil all come ka jiao me lar.?
he : we borrow a while only wad.
me : so is i very selfish lar? that means u all always must hog computer lorh. when all is good den alright. computer spoil den u all use mine. i use wad?
he : u afternoon can use wad. also nv go sch.
me : u think afternoon got ppl chat meh? mostly all at nite den online wad.
he : u guai lan again i throw ur lap top down. u see who guai lan.
me: ...

and while he was parking the car. he purposely use very fast speed. wan to reverse nv put the mode to R. fuck lar. the whole car shot in front. nearly crashing into another car.
FWAH. wan to scare me ah? wan to kill me easy wad. y put my brother's life in danger? he only 12 yr old okay. knn.


if u happen to be in my family. u better not discuss them with any family members. i warn u first.

d0wn

suddenly it dawns on me.
i am a horrible girl.
i use to think that talkin on phone \ smsing is normal.
come to think of it jus now.
its like i'm leading them on.
but i was purely jus chatting.
shit. no good.
i'm really such a bitch.
now i know why already.
i dun wan to go into a relationship, yet i'm giving false hopes.
making ppl sad.
like making them so hopeful and suddenly crash everyone down.
aint i horrible.
i dun do it on purpose.
i dunoe y also.
i feel so much like slappin myself hard.
i cant. i love myself too much.

sorry.
just let me be alone.
sorry for being too good \ showing concern or wadeva shit.
or anything that make u ppl fancy me.
just give up on me.
i'm a big fat flirt. (to think it still rhymes)

leave me alone.

happy. satisfied.

today. woke up at 12pm. from 12.40, i started making pearly's card. =)

first. drawing her name with pencil, then outlining it with black marker:

finished with:

i spent an hour drawing her name!

okay. wrote some words. ugly. spoiler.but suan le. den i pasted it on a black paper.
drew this at one of the corner.

so it looks like :


not satisfied. so i added

and these:


finally!


i spent almost 4 hrs at my dining table doin all these! =D satisfied. she better like it. wahaha

fun day out =)

hmms.
went to sch for the first forum breifing. kinda sleepy for the whole thing. got a yellow collar tee a name tag and a landyard. after which, went to amk then tpy to look for xiao jun. lazy bum. made me travel there. =x
we went bugis! haha. burger king. walked walked. kinokuniya. neoprints! pretty~ nan de i look so pretty okays. and we went west mall. lo0ked for chai yan. walked 2 rounds. den we went lot 1. walked. bot paper to make card for ah pearl. dinner. xiao jun is so so so so so lame. and xiaojun : u are very fat. u haf butter on ur whiskers.

he kinda look like siaogao. =( but nvm. xiaojun. u more cute.

cute cos. today at the road junction. these few sch gals said : eh. the boy very cute.
hahaha. xiaojun, nam lai zak shu?


so pretty, can?

i wan pearly!!!

sobs. she suddenly sms me telling me she's goin aust on sunday. wtf! so last minute.

lost. lost. lost. i wan pearly.

tuesday. wednesday.

tuesday.
slacked at home.
rushed to teck whye and lot 1.
paid bills. 87$. bot concession.
rushed home. rushed to jp.
kena bluffed. =x no haf corpse bride preview.
walked walked. saw this funny picture on lego toy in toy'r'us

look properly. the pilot's hp is as big as him.
there was another wan.
but i din take a pic of it.
the engineer's spanner was bigger than himself.
had a good laugh though.
watched one more chance.
the movie was so okay. =)

today will be watching corpse bride at cine. =)
cr0wn crown crown crown crown. =D

i wanna paint my ro0m! purple? with some art though. =)
i shall do it soon.
stop procrastinating.!

hmm

i jus realised sth. i came back to a yuan dian. for 12 yrs. i had curly hair. i rebonded and it became straight. after having straight hair for 4 yrs. i'm back with curly hair again! hahaha. i lo0ked like wad i was when i was young.

pardon the blur pics.




=) i'm piratedly original.

no confidence.

i went to perm my hair. i kinda like it. but my 2 brothers + xiande whom i met at my hse downstairs said i look fugly. sobs.

okay. process of my hair changing thing :


i think i look pretty good like that, really.




with a stupid curler.


from the back.

VIOLA~ i think i look okay.



but.. ppl de reaction all hen negative. made me cried.
the lady said it will be less curly after some washes. i hope. *prays.

okay.an explosive pic of my mother.


FWAHAHA! shh..

should i?

i've got this fulgy pimple scar on my nose. and i'm considering to pierce a nosehole there to cover it . wahaha! =D

should i?

i'm goin to perm my hair soon. real soon. =D

big grins

big thanks and hugs for all! =D

thanks, sue lin, for being angry for me, saying his childish and wanting his number to scold him.

thanks, leon, for telling me its alright, asking me not to cry, listening to my nonsense, and goin to starlight movies with me.

thanks, yuhan, for being angry, and telling me he's wrong.

thanks, shihao, for listening to me cry, complain, vent my anger, and the ride home .

thanks, zenic, for telling me today will be a better day.

thanks, kailin, for pei-ing me sms when i was so angry, and for the tickets.

thanks, qingxiang, for asking me am i alright, and to ask me to not cry.

thanks, daryl, for making me laugh and tellin me we shan fren him anymore.

thanks, xiaoshortren, for telling me we shouldnt be angry at such measy people, telling me its okay, and saying he'll always be there.

thanks, xiaotianli, for asking me not to be angry, and tryin to make me happy.

thanks, ken, for asking me y am i so angry.

big big hugs.

wadever

accused.

helpess.

angry.

crying in anger, helplessness, the feelin of being accused.

i dun farking care anymore.

sighs

its been such a long time since i last cried so much.

i really couldnt control lar. i havent cry so hard for anyone b4.

xiaoshortren, although i noe u wun be seeing this. but i jus wan to tell u. dun gif up on ur life. i noe u loss sth that meant much and precious, but since its over, give life a chance ok? dun gif up on everything. i dun wan my fren to be like that. u changed alot, from an ah beng to a rugged heck care everything person. =( buck up soon okay? take care loads.

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today i've been scolded bitch.

if bitch = often chatting, laughing, laming and going out with guy friends, den fine. i'm a bitch.

seriously, i dunoe what it takes to be a bitch. i go out with guys, i go out with gals too. i talk to guys, i talk to gals too. i dun think i am pretty, i dun flaunt my assets around, i dun blow kisses and flutter my eyelashes to guys.

YET, i'm a bitch. *roll my eyes.
he says i think i am pretty therefore i can flirt around, thinking i can fly high. and then know a lot of guys, and go out with them, and that by doin so, i canot live without guys. i see no reason in not abling myself to go out with guys.

i mean. i dun go out with them and expect them to pay, hold my hand, send me home, have sex and all of a sudden after that i ignore them. i dun wad! we go dutch, we keep reasonable distance, we laugh joke talk, and we dun do anything else.

i nv once think i'm pretty therefore i haf the ability to seduce all. by such, i take it as he is complimenting me. he thinks i'm pretty.

he is plainly farking jealous that i haf as much male friends as female friends. and the fact he think he is very matured! PWAH! childish. as suelin says. childish. very.

we aint even friends anymore. i dun need someone like u.

does it?

xiao jun kept saying my handphone accessory look like yue bing ren (月饼人). will meh? he says it looks like crown hotel de mooncake.

lets see.
this is my handphone accessory:


this are the mooncakes:


if i add two dots on the accessory, it will be like :


WAHAHAHA! IT REALLI LOOKS ALIKE LEH!!

damn. and i keep telling xiao jun tt he was saying rubbish. =x